Tanpa Tajuk 3

Dalam hati sunyi,
Di luar hingar.

Dalam hati bisu,
Di luar kecoh.

Dalam hati malap,
Di luar cahaya.

Dalam hati sirna,
Di luar sinar.

Dalam hati hitam,
Di luar putih.

Dalam hati menangis,
Di luar ketawa.

Dalam hati terguris,
Di luar tersenyum.

Dalam hati rindu,
Di luar benci.

Ah hati, mengapa sering bertelingkah dengan tubuh?
Sudah lelah melawan perit, sudah jemu berteman sakit.

Hati, izinkan aku bahagia!




-fairuzniza/270911/2032pm-

27 hari sebagai Isteri.

Alhamdulillah, dah 27 hari menjadi seorang isteri kepada Encik Abdul Rahman bin Muda. Bahagia? Harus ada. :) Kerana setelah 2 tahun bersama, akhirnya kami disatukan dengan ikatan yang Halal. Ikatan yang menjadikan dua jiwa menjadi satu. Ikatan yang diidami setiap pasangan yang bercinta.

Dah lama mencari ruang nak mencatat sedikit tentang majlis pernikahan, tapi masih belum punya ruang dan waktu yang tepat. Harus mencari waktu itu. Aku tahu. Mungkin nanti. :) Harap sabar menanti.

i am no superhero.

"memang ku superhero.tapi jangan pula tak tahu ku juga punya kelemahanku.kelemahanku itu kamu." -Faizal Tahir,Superhero,Adrenalin.

oh,itu FT tercinta.he is indeed a superhero in our eyes (the RCs). not me definitely.

i thought i can be strong.er,no.people thought i can be strong.living apart from your hubby should have make you a strong woman. yes,ku percaya itu. but the truth is...

people might see me smiling,laughing, cracking jokes like the usual me,and so on and so forth. but people will never know how i feel inside. i might laugh, but people won't see me crying on my bed everynight. oh,i know the fact that i've only been married for 2 weeks. but that 2 weeks, had really shown me how awful a PJJ is. eh,not Pengajian Jarak Jauh. but PERKAHWINAN JARAK JAUH.

truth be told, it hurts like hell.

people might see me smiling all day long, but people won't see me sleeping while holding tight to my hubby's kain pelikat. just to have the feeling that he was there with me. no, people won't see that.

people might see me driving alone independently to the school every morning, but people won't see me putting my hands at the pasengger's seat every now and then just to feel like he was in the car with me. no, people won't see that.

are you wondering why i am telling you all these when all you can see is the me who gets crazy everytime you meet me? kindly look at the address bar, and tell me what is this blog's name. oh yes, the other side of me. :)

it has only been 2 weeks of marriage, and i am feeling so vulnerable enough. i don't know how the seniors are doing this for years. so salute to you all! yes, to you who had been married and live apart from your husband. oh. sad. sad.

i miss him. do you?

macam ni ke rasa bila dah kawen?

after the akad:

"eh, kita dah kawen eh?"

;p


malam sebelum tido:

"eh, dah kawen yek?"

3 hari selepas akad:

"dah kawen dah?" pastu bantai gelak kuat-kuat.


6 hari selepas akad, jalan-jalan cari lunch berdua:

"dah kawen eh? rasa macam tengah couple lagi jek."

;p


**mungkin sebab lepas kawen, aku dengan hubby duk jauh kot, so tak terasa sangat 'kepengantinan' barunye. ;p**

hubby balik Jumaat nih. WEEEEE~

hopelessly missing you. T_T

Dear hubby,

Do you still remember the first time we got to know that you were posted to Sarawak? Do you still remember how I reacted? Do you still remember how the first time I sent you off at the hotel? I was devastated that time. And do you still remember how I parked my car at the side of the road just to cry out loud?

Yes, honey. That's all because I love you. So. Much.

And after time, I got used to sending you off to KLIA or LCCT. I didn't cry anymore. Not in front of you. But as I drove home, tears accompanied my journey home.

And again, that is because I love you.

After we got engaged, the feeling was different every and each time I sent you off. I may look happy when you were about to leave, but truly, I was broken deep inside. Oh yes, how I wish was already your wife that time, so I can hug you each time you were leaving me.

Yes, again, that is because I just love you.

And now, Alhamdulillah we are married. I am already your wife. But I didn't foresee that I would cry the way I cried on the day you were leaving. It was hard and it is still hard. It is harder when I am sending you off as my husband. And I thought I would be strong. Strong enough not to cry in front of you. But I failed. I did cry in front of you in the room. And when you kissed my forehead at KLIA, I swear I was trying hard to hold the tears from bursting out. And yet, Mom cried.

It was hard, honey. It was so hard.

I don't know how I did it, but being apart from you, really taught me how to love you more and more each and every day.

I just hope and pray that one day, He will unite us and let us live as a normal husband and wife.



I hopelessly am missing you so much that it hurts a lot!


-your wife-

snapshots

ini gambar gambar yang di snapped oleh our OP. :) baru dapat sikit.nak lagi banyak kena tunggu. :)











*senyum lebar-lebar*

credit to mior for the pictures. cantik! :)

Alhamdulillah atas segalanya. :)

Alhamdulillah,dah selamat menjadi seorang Puan sekarang.

Sorry lama x apdet.been busy doing this and that.

And rasanya belum terlambat nak ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya kepada semua yang mengenali diri ini. Maaf zahir dan batin. :)

update on wedding? i think later kot. :) sekarang banyak benda nak kena uruskan,termasuklah menenangkan hati sendiri. :)

Doakan cinta kami hingga ke Syurga! :)