l.e.a.v.i.n.g

woke up at 4 a.m for no reasons.

can't shut the eyes no more.

and here i am.

ust to tell..

.i'm leaving.

.everything.

.behind.

.goodbye.

apdet~

hahah~
da lame tak apdet.
sebab?

malas n takde tenet.

rasa cam..nak quit blogging. ^_^
dah malas nak layan perang dunia blogging nih.
:p

jadual aku skang:

6.30 am - subuh.pastu tido balik.
9/10/11/12 am- bangun. jemur baju. lipat baju. tengok tv
sampai kul 2 - makan, tgk tv
2 - 6 pm- masuk bilik. ape lagi? tido la.
kua bilik jam 9 - tgk tv.
2 am- zzzzz

sekian.

hahaha..sonoknye duk umah.. :p

heaven..

done

i'm done.

done with bedsa.
done with sop @ ros.
done with sk taman selasih.
done with IIUM.

feelings?

T_T

..happy birthday..

happy birthday, dear..
happy 23rd birthday..

am sorry for not being by your side on your special day.
am sorry for not able to give you anything special for your day.
am sorry for being absolutely troublesome for you on your very day.
am sorry for everything.

also, am sorry for saying 'b dah tua' until i fell asleep last night. ^_^

i love you. always.

emo~

oh, tersangat emo entry sebelum ini.
tatau la ngape.
tapi since ade je yang tak paham2 lagi aku ni cane..
aku pun sampai dah malas nak explain.
remember, never explain urself to people, siti fairuzniza.
they won't understand you.
ever.

haih~

susah idup bermesyarakat nih.
payah nak jaga ati sume orang.
ati aku?
ada orang jaga?
haprak~

adeh la..
bahasa kebangsaan yang kucar kacir bersama maki hamun yang kurang asam.
tapi aku pun tak terjaga bahasa bila hati tak dijaga.
haram~

ape aku cakap nih?

aish~

bosan. penat. nyampah. nak tengok muke korang pun ada rasa benci.
siot.

brief update

i'm left out.
o yeah~
i like this feeling.
manusia bangang mane yg suke menjauhkan diri kalau takde sebab?
pk la sendiri.
aku pun dah penat nak rapatkan balik mane yang dah longgar.
tapi kalau asek tak jadi je, aku pun penat nak cuba mengatur samting lagi.
jadual biologi dah tak sama.
so aku pun retreat.
malas dah nak cakap pape.
malas nak pk pape.

lantak lah.

aku dengan idup aku je sekarang.

best atau tak, mampus aku lah.


p/s- mood bengang. jangan kaco.

hari guru

hailoh~

senin ni sambutan hari guru.
kami cecekgu ros kene wat pesembahan.
nak wat ape nih?
ikutkan aku nak wat pentomim bisu je.
duk diam je atas pentas tuh.
kang kene baling telur.

nak wat hape nih?

idea pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

p/s- kami ada tige orang je..wawawa

english camp

had an english camp today.
it was for year 4, and we picked the last 3 classes.

my feelings?

indescribable.

i have lost half of my mind. ^_^

tomorrow, the same thing will happen, the only changes is that we pick the first 3 classes of year 5.
the activities? i changed mine. i don't know about my partners.
and...
i don't know if i'm going to lose another half of my mind.
if that happens, i don't know what should i be called anymore. :p

*****
i miss him. :( it had been about 3 weeks since i last met my other half. *sigh*


*****
this is a reminder for me: (for only God knows why)

hati, jangan terusik walau sedikit. jangan tersentuh walau seinci. jangan terkuis walau sezarah.

.a teacher.

what kind of feeling is this..

another 2 weeks to go before i end my school orientation programme.
i'm happy, though i feel a little hollow in me.
why is it so?
that's why i hate to attach myself to anything or anyone.

gosh, i have to admit that i'm getting myself into this school.
i hate this.
but it's true.

aiyark.

remember my mak long i used to tell you in the previous entry of aidilfitri?
yesterday, 2.30 am, she went away..to meet HIM.
after surviving her operation.
her blood pressure went low, and she couldnt take it anymore.
so..she's gone.
al-fatihah to my late mak long.
*silent mode*
*so today i went to school in all black..i'm mourning, alone..*

apdet tralala~

nape aku lame tak apdet?

1. sebab aku penat balik sekolah..sah2 aku tegolek atas katil bila balik sekolah.
2. sebab wireless tongong tak dapat. dah ramei orang kat blok nih, so aku tak dapat connect memandangkan bilik aku dah betukar n agak tesorok. kambeng tull.
3. sebab aku duk nengok anime blood+ dengan jayanya.
4. sebab skang ni asal malam je aku kua makan. :p
5. sebab aku tak dapat apdet ler!

^_^

p/s- semalam masa aku masuk kelas 5 anggerik, diorang tecengang. bila aku tanye "kamu tengok ape?", ada budak jawab "cikgu cantik..." muehehehe :p

daily life of a ROS teacher

this is what i usually do everyday..nowadays..

got up at 6 am.
go to school at 7 am.
back to uia at 1.30 pm. (arrive at uia about 2 pm)
sleep.
eat.
sleep.

thank you.

a reflection of a teacher

today we still have to replace a teacher since she won't be around.
and even though we have been bragging about not wanting to replace anybody to finish our own work for english camp today, we still accepted it.
entered the class with the other 2 of my partners- meaning, 3 of us in the same class.

since the both of them wanted me to started the class (induction), i accepted it. (sorang lawan 2 memang la kalah)

o yeah, i started the class.

result?

ain said i am garang.
kz too.

haha~

the reflection of me as a teacher:

i started the class by being fierce doesn't mean i don't like the children.
i just want them to at least listen to me.
well, i managed to be a fierce teacher.
:)

good days at home

balik umah jumaat ritu.
sampai2 umah, angah dah takde. dia dah gi teganu.
tinggal compok.
nampak compok pasif semacam je.
panggil pun wat dek je.

bagi makan pun tanak.
aku pun hairan.
mama cakap compok demam.
sian budak itu.

sedar2, dia gi tido kat bilik air.
tekujat kami sume.
panas sangat gamaknye.

soknye, bawak compok gi kenek.
doktor cek, 103 celcius budak itu.
lagi la tekujat kami sume.
kene injection sebijik kat bontot.
mengamuk sakan la compok tu.

balik tu, bagi dia makan ubat.
bekerja keras la aku, abah ngan ijah memegang dia nak suap ubat tu.

ari ni alhamdulillah dia dah start makan.
bimbang gak, 3 ari dia tak makan pape.
air pun minum sikit je..

sekian sahaja cerita waktu kat umah.

^_^

double updates

rabu

tak apdet sebab terlalu penat. jejak kaki di bilik jam 12.30 malam, terus zzzzz.
siap sempat telelap masa tengah drive. sib baik tak jadi pape.

kat sekolah?
masuk kelas. 3 kelas aku dapat ari tu.
3 cempaka, 6 selasih ngan 4 kekwa.
penat yang amat.
tapi sonok.
aku ni ada gaya jadi cikgu disiplin gamaknye.
budak 4k cakap: "muka cikgu ni garang la. takut sy."
muahaha.

balik tu, terus gi klang.
dia datang sini, lepas sampai dari muar.
hantar sebab ni la kali terakhir kami jumpa sekejap.
dia dah nak balik kampung, praktikum da abeh. *sedih*
gi klang, pos moto dia, gi banting, jumpa arm, then hantar dia balik.
sedihnye nak bepisah, tapi sebab alang ikut, aku cover je. *muehehe*

lepas tu, gi rawang, umah ayahde alang.
makan buah langsat sampai kenyang gile.
tak larat dah aku.

balik tu memang penat nak mati ler..tido je aku..

**kelisa yg buat perangai dah dihantar balik utk dibaiki. abah datang amik malam tu**

kames

kat sekolah ari i ok la jugak.
tapi aku yg penat nak mati.
rasa nak begolek tido sebab tak cukup tido minggu ni.

ari ni masuk satu kelas je..2 kekwa.
sonok la jugak.
balik tu, ujan.
disebabkan kami gi sekolah ngan moto, aku bitau kz, baik stranded kat giant (lebey kurang 500m je dari sekolah) dari stranded kat sekola tu. jd kami ke giant. abehkan masa sampai kul 3.
ainul belanje eskrem. muahaha.

balik tu, memang aku terus jejak dunia lain..sampaila malam.
gile ah.
tido macam esok dah takleh nak tido.
qadha' balik tido utk seminggu.
haha~

ari ni?
nak balik umah..

daaaa~

the longest day

Today has been the longest day for me myself so far.

part 1

Early in the morning, kz, ainul n I finally were able to report for duty at sk taman selasih, for our school orientation programme. Today is supposed to be our second day, however due to the uninformed holiday yesterday, it became the first day for three of us.

we arrived at the school at 7.20 (quite late compared to yesterday). since the students are still playing around the canteen, we decided to sit still inside the car until the bell rings. so rang the bell, and the students went inside their classrooms. we got out of the car (after being usha slack by the teachers who were taking their breakfast - i parked my car in front of the canteen) and went to teh office. on our way, we met a teacher..a lady teacher, whom kz automatically named her as 'cikgu datin' coz she looks like one. i smiled at her, but she replied my smile with a frown and turned away. damn. i hate that.

then, we met pk 1, since the headmistress is on mc (fractured hands), and introduce ourselves. then the pk asked us to go and find our seats in the staff room ON OUR OWN. she said: "kalau takde kerusi tu, pandai2 la cari". dem. i hate that. again.

waiting till 1 pm, was the longest waiting i ever had. the unwelcomed atmosphere was killing me, and i definitely do not have the mood to see teachers in the school. sucks. i know i shouldnt be saying this, but for my first day, i hate it. really hate it.

we done nothing, except taking pictures of all the things on the notice board and went around the school. and yeah, my 3 inches shoes were named "kasut klcc". :p and when i walked by a student, i heard she said "comel kasut cikgu". kih kih kih. (thank you for your patience, dear -you would not want to know how diffiucult it was to find the shoes)

ok ok, went back to the story..so..for myself, the conclusion for the first day is..I HATE BEING IN THE SCHOOL. thank you.

part two of the day..

went to send jaja to get her passport at wangsa maju. then, went to send her and elis to bangi, for them to hand in their passports to munsif, someone in Institut perguruan islam bangi. on the way, at 5 pm, on the highway, after ampang point, the car was berasap like hell. (siriusly, macam dalam angan2 aku selama ni). i stopped by the road, and two guys came to help. after quite a while, he said, the kipas is not functioning. so the water did not go into the tank. then, the car overheated. jeng jeng jeng.

then, after a few scenes of siram enjin dengan air and tuang air bebotol2 dalam tangki, they went away, telling me that i can drive the car back to uia, with condition that if the temperature went high again, then i should stop and do the siraming activity again.

so i called abang nizam. then waited for him. after quite a while, he said i can bring the car back, drive slowly in front of him. so i drove the car, but not for long. i stopped due to something happens, and he asked me to drive his car, and he drove mine. hell yeah, i got to drive my dream car since i was in secondary school finally. satria was my dream car. my kereta idaman terlarang. mom wont allow me to have the car cos it's not convenient for passengers at the back. hmm..reason accepted. :)

then, we decided -me, jaja, elis, and bida to go to bangi using abang nizam's car. yeah..i got to drive the car for quite some miles. ^_^

got back, and abang nizam said..the radiator might is leaking because the water is dropping down. shit ah. banyak lagi nak pakai duit. tetekan aku.

however, my head turned blurry, and my mind cant function well. i am or was sooooooo exhausted that i cant even open my eyes right now. sleepy to death.

zzzzz

*no pictures were involved during the accidents*