hopelessly missing you. T_T

Dear hubby,

Do you still remember the first time we got to know that you were posted to Sarawak? Do you still remember how I reacted? Do you still remember how the first time I sent you off at the hotel? I was devastated that time. And do you still remember how I parked my car at the side of the road just to cry out loud?

Yes, honey. That's all because I love you. So. Much.

And after time, I got used to sending you off to KLIA or LCCT. I didn't cry anymore. Not in front of you. But as I drove home, tears accompanied my journey home.

And again, that is because I love you.

After we got engaged, the feeling was different every and each time I sent you off. I may look happy when you were about to leave, but truly, I was broken deep inside. Oh yes, how I wish was already your wife that time, so I can hug you each time you were leaving me.

Yes, again, that is because I just love you.

And now, Alhamdulillah we are married. I am already your wife. But I didn't foresee that I would cry the way I cried on the day you were leaving. It was hard and it is still hard. It is harder when I am sending you off as my husband. And I thought I would be strong. Strong enough not to cry in front of you. But I failed. I did cry in front of you in the room. And when you kissed my forehead at KLIA, I swear I was trying hard to hold the tears from bursting out. And yet, Mom cried.

It was hard, honey. It was so hard.

I don't know how I did it, but being apart from you, really taught me how to love you more and more each and every day.

I just hope and pray that one day, He will unite us and let us live as a normal husband and wife.



I hopelessly am missing you so much that it hurts a lot!


-your wife-