i am no superhero.

"memang ku superhero.tapi jangan pula tak tahu ku juga punya kelemahanku.kelemahanku itu kamu." -Faizal Tahir,Superhero,Adrenalin.

oh,itu FT tercinta.he is indeed a superhero in our eyes (the RCs). not me definitely.

i thought i can be strong.er,no.people thought i can be strong.living apart from your hubby should have make you a strong woman. yes,ku percaya itu. but the truth is...

people might see me smiling,laughing, cracking jokes like the usual me,and so on and so forth. but people will never know how i feel inside. i might laugh, but people won't see me crying on my bed everynight. oh,i know the fact that i've only been married for 2 weeks. but that 2 weeks, had really shown me how awful a PJJ is. eh,not Pengajian Jarak Jauh. but PERKAHWINAN JARAK JAUH.

truth be told, it hurts like hell.

people might see me smiling all day long, but people won't see me sleeping while holding tight to my hubby's kain pelikat. just to have the feeling that he was there with me. no, people won't see that.

people might see me driving alone independently to the school every morning, but people won't see me putting my hands at the pasengger's seat every now and then just to feel like he was in the car with me. no, people won't see that.

are you wondering why i am telling you all these when all you can see is the me who gets crazy everytime you meet me? kindly look at the address bar, and tell me what is this blog's name. oh yes, the other side of me. :)

it has only been 2 weeks of marriage, and i am feeling so vulnerable enough. i don't know how the seniors are doing this for years. so salute to you all! yes, to you who had been married and live apart from your husband. oh. sad. sad.

i miss him. do you?